.:Write from the ♥:.

So it's been a while since I have just written what I am feeling.
I love to write
and I find that it brings such clarity
to my mind and my heart.
I love being able to express my feelings without fear of judgement or criticism.
I love knowing that my thoughts, feelings, fears, hopes, doubts, goals, dreams etc. are mine and are valid.

So lately I have been doing a lot of soul searchingwhen it comes to dating and relationships.
I have come to the realization
that I still have some deep rooted issues
regarding marriage.
I am scared of marriage and scared of falling in love again. And I am even more scared of the possibility that they will fail. Again.

I feel like my ♥ is still so guarded from the last time that I fell in love with someone.

It's so scary giving someone your heart and trusting them not to break it.

I did that once, sadly it was shattered into a million tiny pieces.

I am finally starting to feel like the pieces are being put back into place, but I have to be very gentle with it and give it time to continue to heal.

I know that before I can go into another relationship, I have to be best friends with that person. I have to trust that person. I have to know that that person understands me and the experiences that have made me who I am.

Life is too short to not feel safe with the one that you love.

9/11 I remember

I remember not being able to pull myself away from my TV that day.

I was in the 9th grade.

I remember walking to Seminary and hearing my Seminary teacher tell us about the Twin Towers being hit by a plane... I had no idea what they were, but as soon as I saw the wreckage, I was heart broken for all of those men and women and their families.

So today I remember and am grateful for the freedoms that we have, and the men and women who keep it that way.



To you, Thank you from the bottom of my heart!!